Monday, May 25, 2009

To my First Step-dad


I haven't seen or heard from him since my mom and him got divorced. I had a dream about meeting him last night and I have to right about him because my feelings are so mixed right now.

I wonder what you're doing now.
I don't think you care what I'm doing.
I graduated from college with a degree in Psychology and a GPA of 3.18 no thanks to you.

I am thankful for your service to our country and that will never change.
If you can be so bold as to fight for our country why can't you talk to me?

Do you remember building a snowman in our backyard?
Do you remember Chaser?
Or Dave?

Well I remember all of it much to your surprise I'm sure.
I remember you used to wear softball shorts all the time.
I remember you used to play softball.
You took us to an air show at Pope AFB.
Dave used to pack parachutes.
You couldn't tell us what you did.

You went to South Korea for two years and during that time my mom cheated on you.
I am sorry that she cheated on you especially while you were serving our country.
You can't blame me for what she did.

I am happily married now.
Sister graduates with a degree in Biology in December.
Philip goes to the same college I went to.
I bet you didn't even know we're old enough to be in college.

You made a positive impact on my life while you were in it.
You've tortured me since you've been gone.
I hope you're happy.
I also hope to talk to you again, if you are willing.
I don't think you are.

I never got a chance to say goodbye.
So here it is:
Goodbye!
Not that you care.

hrmph...